March 02, 2010

why me?


so here's the thing:
our final assessments consist of 1 written paper, and 2 clinical cases- seen and unseen case. the unseen case can be on any departments in dentistry whereas the seen case is the one patient with multidisciplinary treatments that you have completed.

for me, i've started on the wrong side!
#1st patient was wrongly assigned to me when he was supposedly to get treatment from the SHO.
#2nd patient wanted something that i can't give- which automatically he'll be discharged from my list- but he insisted on trying the options i can offer. days gone, time passed by, he kept DNA-ing (konon sakitlah!) and after few months wasted on him, he decided that he wants treatment no more!
#3rd patient was a weird lady that doesn't seems to care about her teeth at all! it was horrible, no joke. i got her discharged as well because she wasn't compliance enough.

then i found him.

he's the loveliest guy i've ever get hold of. ever. definitely a keeper. always on time for the appointment. always find and make time to come whenever i need him to. always positive and kept motivating me on completing his complex treatments.

...until he dropped the bomb 3 weeks ago. [another reason why i left for a 24hour-soton-getaway]

final patient will be away for 8 weeks!

why must it be now- the crucial, peak time? how on earth am i gonna get all these treatments done on time? case presentation on 8-10th of June *thinking thinking* will i make it? i'm as good as dead, aren't i?

colleagues think i'm cool because im taking the blow quite well *frown* honestly it wasn't easy forcing myself to laugh over this serious matter as my degree is put at stake. but i've wasted too much energy worrying about it that i've got none left. afterall, Allah knows what's best for me. mungkin ada hikmah... which i have yet to find.

i'm writing this, today, just as a reminder to myself on how hard it was for me to complete this phase of life. and if i can get through this, i definitely can get through anything. may Allah ease my way. insyallah.

...anything that happens, this is definitely worth fighting for!

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