my backbones

i had the sweetest dream last night!!!

in my dream, i saw myself in my fuscia-wall bedroom holding a baby. it's faris aiman people! awwwww he was so adorable, tiny and it felt so good to cuddle him. i was putting him to sleep while singing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star over and over again- apparently that's the only nursery rhyme that i can sing in my dream. he must have enjoyed it so much that he fell asleep soundly.

aigooooo the exams always made me feel homesick *pout* or maybe the older you get, the more attached you become towards your family?

i felt sorry for my parents for having a rebellious daughter once upon a time ago; wanting to live independantly and away from home. at the age of 8, i was inspired to study abroad just by looking at the older cousins and this drama melayu where got azhar sulaiman, azah aziz.... errr, was it cinta korporat or something? (the shooting location was london, that i remembered clearly my friend. rofl.) and i even thought of staying abroad, working and settling down here. i was too young and naive back then.

but now all that is no longer part of the plan! scrap that!

after nearly 9 years of being away from home, i have to admit that i have had enough of adventures, living on my own, following my own style, making my own rules. i think it's time for me to go back, duduk bawah ketiak mak and just spend most of my time with them.

...i miss just the three of us (ma, ba and moi) trying out new places for saturday's breakfast.
...i miss being ma's sidekick in decorating the house - from the furnitures selection to the colour coordination of each room to ways of arranging them.
...i miss being fed by abah; where he's able to read my mind (or maybe more of my tummy's brain!) and get the food i'm craving for even without me saying it out loud.
yes, i nak balik malaysia! they are the biggest motivation for me to persevere and work my ass off to pass this coming exams!!! i can do it *fighting*