as yesterday was my last day in Southend, i was looking back at the goals i set for myself before i started it. i already knew all along that it will be hard to get most of the requirements done there as it all depends on luck ...and knowing mine, gosh, dream on babe!
all i want was pretty simple - i just want to be comfortable and confident with what i'm doing now. i want to be able to deliver good treatments to the patients i've seen and at least made an attempt to change their perceptions towards a better oral health.
i'm not sure what i've done right but it was definitely rewarding to get a pat on the back, a smile, a "you can do it" wink after completing the tasks. *giggle*
that is definitely the best thing about working in close-support with human beings! they respond back to you after all your hardwork. not to say that i'm doing all of this just to get compliments, attention from others though. no, don't get me wrong here!
however, when you do get it, how do you actually respond to praises?
do you bask graciously, take a bow on the stage in the limelight? or do you mumble, trying to find the right words to tone it down? do you treasure the moment of glory? or do you shrink in embarrassement?
like me, i want to be acknwoledged for what i've done but i do feel quite embarrassed to accept the compliments given. there will be this nagging voice deep inside me saying that "ahh you missed that one" or "no, that wasn't good enough!" or "it would have been better if......" it's too loud that i couldn't fight it!
until one day, a friend commented that i shouldn't be too hard on myself! this is like self-abusing, he jokingly said. i went back home and couldn't stop thinking about it. maybe he's right. accepting compliments (not to boost it lah!) is like taking supplementary to nurture our starving self-esteem. it's like believing in yourself, in your abilities and accepting your strength. think positively, then you'll see things differently. bak kata pakar motivasi, jika kau fikirkan kau boleh, kau pasti boleh melakukan. jika kau fikirkan ragu-ragu, usahamu tidak menentu.
i am really thankful to have met really nice, sweet, positive-thinking patients throughout my clinical trainings. without their support, i wouldn't realise that i am able to deliver that much to others. especially now when i'm having the exam-crisis-help-me-i-have-doubt-in-myself kinda thing!
thank you and god bless! **hugs**
all i want was pretty simple - i just want to be comfortable and confident with what i'm doing now. i want to be able to deliver good treatments to the patients i've seen and at least made an attempt to change their perceptions towards a better oral health.
i'm not sure what i've done right but it was definitely rewarding to get a pat on the back, a smile, a "you can do it" wink after completing the tasks. *giggle*
that is definitely the best thing about working in close-support with human beings! they respond back to you after all your hardwork. not to say that i'm doing all of this just to get compliments, attention from others though. no, don't get me wrong here!
however, when you do get it, how do you actually respond to praises?
do you bask graciously, take a bow on the stage in the limelight? or do you mumble, trying to find the right words to tone it down? do you treasure the moment of glory? or do you shrink in embarrassement?
like me, i want to be acknwoledged for what i've done but i do feel quite embarrassed to accept the compliments given. there will be this nagging voice deep inside me saying that "ahh you missed that one" or "no, that wasn't good enough!" or "it would have been better if......" it's too loud that i couldn't fight it!
until one day, a friend commented that i shouldn't be too hard on myself! this is like self-abusing, he jokingly said. i went back home and couldn't stop thinking about it. maybe he's right. accepting compliments (not to boost it lah!) is like taking supplementary to nurture our starving self-esteem. it's like believing in yourself, in your abilities and accepting your strength. think positively, then you'll see things differently. bak kata pakar motivasi, jika kau fikirkan kau boleh, kau pasti boleh melakukan. jika kau fikirkan ragu-ragu, usahamu tidak menentu.
i am really thankful to have met really nice, sweet, positive-thinking patients throughout my clinical trainings. without their support, i wouldn't realise that i am able to deliver that much to others. especially now when i'm having the exam-crisis-help-me-i-have-doubt-in-myself kinda thing!
thank you and god bless! **hugs**
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