I'm 22 this year, turning 23 next year....

....and i'm feeling content with my life at the mo! Alhamdulillah.

The Creative Zen Vision:M kept on playing and the "Recipes for a Perfect Marriage" stayed open at the "Endurance" chapter. After sipping the cold milk, i fell asleep like a baby.I took a short, 2 hours nap after the light dinner of toast and kambing-but-tak-rase-kambing spaghetti sauce home cooked by Dina.

I stared at the ceiling for 10 minutes after waking up. I saw the glow in the dark stars. Looked around the room. Stared at the familiar faces from the photos on the wall. Tried to find the strength to keep me moving. Probably the fact that i was awake since 5.45 am just to get to the Billingsgate Market and bought fresh CRABS (!!!), fishes and gigantic prawns made me tired. The fact that i was in the kitchen until noon cleaning the seafood, had nasi lemak partayy with the flatmates and rushed to Sainsbury's for groceries shopping, meredah the cold, frosty weather, exhaust me. Probably i'm already worn out by the revisions followed by the exam week and the debaran menanti results.

I.am.really.tired.for.god.sake.

But last night...it was all good. Lying on the bed, all alone, thinking about....me, my life and those involved in it. How i just realised that the family bonds kept me going for all this while. How the concerns and cares showed by friends gave me the airbag, comfortable and safe surface for me to land whenever i fall. How ungrateful i am towards a guy who gave his unconditional love ever since 6 years ago. How I've worked hard to achieve wut i have today. How challenging dental course is. And how hard it is to live on my own.

Reflecting on life. Once in a while, it's gud to reflect back on what you've done. What you've taken from others. And what you've given them back in return.

Life can be hard, but we make it even harder by the way we look at it. Be optimistic. Every problem has its solution. When you're around something every day you stop seeing it. That's when u start treating others like shit. That's when u start taking things for granted. And on the day you believe you have found the answers is the day life tells you that you know nothing at all. When you think you have suffered enough and the road ahead looks sunny and flat, you will turn the corner and find there is a mountain to climb. When you climb the mountain there are no guarantees that there will not be another, and another after that.

I'm 22 turning to 23 next September. I have Abah, Mama, Along, Joe, Zahir and Wawa as my backbones. I have my cintas, chanteks, Qmarians, KYUEMians and all those wonderful friends who are willing to stay by myside through thick and thin. I have him who is waiting patiently and looking after me, on every steps i take. I'm using my greatest gift from Allah; a pair of hands that work wonderfully and creatively. I get to cook what i feel like eating. I make people feel special by baking their birthday cakes. I'm living in London; the coolest city you ever wished for. And..i'm currently earning in pounds which gives me the chance to shop more, ronggeng more and makan more! :P

"Lets grow old together"