June 19, 2007

Expectation

Something good happened yesterday :D And it made me smile the whole evening! Probably if there's a camera in the room, you can still see me smiling while i'm asleep. hehehe. I guess good things come along when you least expect it. Seriously i didnt see it coming...but it was a pleasant suprise indeed ;)

We always have certain level of expectation on ourselves when we do something. You may have it high or low, it's up to your own judgement. You know your own capability. One thing for sure, people around u have higher expectation on you. Which i find kinda....stressful!!!!

I think...the higher the expectation, the more chances you are going to be disappointed. Coz you don't leave any space for errors. And we do know that people make mistakes. You don't want it to happen, but sometimes it does. And if you're not prepared for it, it's hard to handle it. It's not about being a pessimist but do think of the worst thing that could happen when you do something. Like, when I gave the local anaesthetic to my patient 2 weeks ago, I did consider the idea of hitting something i shouldn't hit and some side effects from it. Or how i thought that my hand will shake continuosly while giving it (coz that was the first time I gave it to a real patient. that's the 3rd time i pegang syringe. and dr. K didnt even hold my hand to show me where to inject. giler ar!). But it was all good. To begin with, the needle didnt hit anywhere else besides the gum. And yeah, i did have more control of the needle. So at the end of the session, i was kinda proud of myself. More of relieved, actually. ahahaha!

Expect the outcome of the task. Leave room for errors. Always *ALWAYS* give feedback to yourself after the task. AND start from the positive ones :) Probably it's something that i picked up here; they always say good things first before commenting on your weaknesses. And i find it... soothing. You don't feel like you are a total idiot. hahaha. Afterall, takkan la everything you buat semuanye salah? Sure ade something yang betul, kan?

ps- some pics from My Old Dutch ::The Pancake House:: at holborn. Went there with QMarians to celebrate teri's birthday. A nice place to hang out with friends. The portion is huge but then, it's very nipis. So yeah, can habiskan the whole plate all by myself. But i did get muak towards the end. Luckily i shared with fatiha. We tried both; savoury and sweet pancakes. nyum nyum!

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