emotions are messy

"maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is.
appreciating small victories.
admiring the struggle it takes simply to achieve it.
maybe we are thankful for the familiar things we know.
and maybe we are thankful for the things we'll never know.
at the end of the day....
the fact that we have the courage to still be standing
is reason enough to celebrate!"

Meredith; grey's anatomy.