it's just that lately i've been flipping through photos' of friends' engagements/ weddings/ first child arrival - there were too much of them! in the end, i just sat on the chair, clicked the mouse with the right hand and i ate my heart out.
i felt left out. macam late bloomer gitu.
just because i'm away from home that i couldn't be there to share their bundle of joy. just because until i'm done over here, i will never be able to move on.
yes, i want to move on to another stage of life.
last time i made a remark on how nice it is to be married to a friend of mine when we were sending her off from southend to her apartment in wapping. then the owner of the car asked me, "is your life long dream is to get married,R?"
"YES! YES! YES!" i shouted [dalam hati lah].
it'll be too embarrassing to admit that in public- i might as well stick a post-it on my forehead with a bold, caps lock DESPERATE imprinted on it . so i just shrugged and replied casually, "isn't it the same in all girls?"is it not?
to have a place called home and someone to go back to after a long shit+workloads day in the office. the power of being wanted and a sense of belonging. to think and worry about a non-blood-related not-so-stranger person as much as he worries and thinks about you. to have babies and cherish each seconds as the tummy starts growing, the fetus starts kicking. to be able to mess up, have a fight because you knew it won't be long till you guys blurt out the word "sorry" and make up again. to know that you have that person on your side come whatever happens.
ohkay i lied!
i mean, i left out another important bits of why i want to get married. it's because uhm i want a *cough*wedding*cough* hahahah! getting all the preparations done; do all the details from choosing the colour theme, the fabric/ lace for the wedding gown, the reception place, the hantaran, the doorgifts, the everything lah! it is soooo exciting!!!!
when all of the friends have moved forward, i will still be here. but worry not! it will happens when the time comes.
i'll catch up *wink* errr janganlah cepat sangat korang!
i felt left out. macam late bloomer gitu.
just because i'm away from home that i couldn't be there to share their bundle of joy. just because until i'm done over here, i will never be able to move on.
yes, i want to move on to another stage of life.
last time i made a remark on how nice it is to be married to a friend of mine when we were sending her off from southend to her apartment in wapping. then the owner of the car asked me, "is your life long dream is to get married,R?"
"YES! YES! YES!" i shouted [dalam hati lah].
it'll be too embarrassing to admit that in public- i might as well stick a post-it on my forehead with a bold, caps lock DESPERATE imprinted on it . so i just shrugged and replied casually, "isn't it the same in all girls?"is it not?
to have a place called home and someone to go back to after a long shit+workloads day in the office. the power of being wanted and a sense of belonging. to think and worry about a non-blood-related not-so-stranger person as much as he worries and thinks about you. to have babies and cherish each seconds as the tummy starts growing, the fetus starts kicking. to be able to mess up, have a fight because you knew it won't be long till you guys blurt out the word "sorry" and make up again. to know that you have that person on your side come whatever happens.
ohkay i lied!
i mean, i left out another important bits of why i want to get married. it's because uhm i want a *cough*wedding*cough* hahahah! getting all the preparations done; do all the details from choosing the colour theme, the fabric/ lace for the wedding gown, the reception place, the hantaran, the doorgifts, the everything lah! it is soooo exciting!!!!
when all of the friends have moved forward, i will still be here. but worry not! it will happens when the time comes.
i'll catch up *wink* errr janganlah cepat sangat korang!
2 comments:
look whos talking!!! =P
gaaaaaaahhhhh!!!!!
do not compare with qmarians la. we all not making progress oso, apart from missyA who's getting married in err less than 2 weeks from now! but aiyoooo, most of my high school friends either already engaged or married or pregnant or beranak sudah!!!!!
but surprisingly, i haven't heard any of those news from my non-malay friends la. although i have to say that i dont have that many close non-malay friends. hihihi.
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