October 17, 2009

red dots

the first thing that missy bestie commented when we first met after 5 weeks of separation was, "are you stressed?" <--looking at me with her concerned-eyes.

i guess she doesn't really have to wait for me to blurt out the answer as it was soooo obviously "written" on my "pizza-face with the generous amount of pepperoni spread on it". *pout*

as much as i hate this pimples business, i can never find a way to escape from it! it's been haunting me since errrr i got my first period. that's like 12 years ago? laaaaaamaaaaaaaaa kan?

and ohmygod, i've tried sooooo many things to get rid of it tau! and the scars? susahnyeeee!

i took few courses of tetracycline antibiotic before. had monthly consultations with my dermatologist in SJMC - thank god HICOM paid for all that RM300-for-less-than-15mins-consultation sessions. bought Dr.Murad's acne-solutions from USA. i even quit binging on chocolate (where i'll normally have a box of cadbury to accompany me studying) and say goodbye to my favourite pistachio and cashew nuts.

fail. fail. fail.

probably now it isn't as bad as those high-school pimples BUT they are still here. as much as they have affected my confidence before, they still have an impact on how i feel about myself today. but maybe i'm growing up, becoming more matured now. maybe it's is more than just how you look that make you feel good about yourself... you have to look at the inner-strength, the whole package of what it has to offer!

during my younger years, i'm against the idea of attending any social events when it pops out - i'll find 1001 excuses to find myself an escape! now, i don't do that anymore. not just because i have make-up to put on and cover the cacat-cela but i believe that everyone has their best-angle when it comes to photographs. mine would definitely be the side pimple-less. *wink*


despite the fact that i still hate looking at my own reflection in the mirror, i think i'm done grieving for the fate of my skin. i'm slowly beginning to accept it! hey, at least it ages at a slower rate than those pimple-less skin. rofl.

tuhan kan Maha Adil ;))

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