Big spender? Shopaholic? Psychology problem of not being able to see "money going, going,gone"?

No, No, No!

I'm not in debt! I dont spent all my allowance on shopping! And i kept $$.$$ per month for my future use. Belum lagi $$.$$ utk travelling purposes!

BUT-

Deep in my heart, i do hope that SOOOOON JPA will increase the allowance!!! Please please please? I janji akan belajar dgn lebih rajin if allowance increase!

How does the increase of allowance relates with my increase rate of revision?

Urmm urmm well with the extra allowance I can buy the "brain food"!!! The fish here is expensive!!! Nak makan sekali-sekala bole laaaa....*teringat kari kepala ikan haritu!nyumnyum!* Gosh Rashidah, you're so lame! :P

Well the thing is my expenditure for this year is definitely higher than last year! How come? Well, lets just say I've changed my taste and preference. Dulu, segala benda pun basic. Now...hmm, lets just say it's a treat for myself once in a while! Dulu, tgk coat GBP50 dah terus turn-off. Now.... angkut sajalah! Orang lain beli lagi mahal....100pounds pun ade! Dulu tk reti masak sgt...so tk masak utk ramai2. Now dah yakin sket ar (hee hee hee) so ramai yang dijamu!

THE PROBLEM NOW IS MY INCOME TK BERANAK PINAK MCM MY EXPENDITURE NI!!!!

haiihhhhhhh~!!! :(

So how to solve the problem? There are 2 methods, either i "Cut back" or "Make MORE money". hmmm..which one is the easiest? hee hee hee.... due-due pun susaaaaaaah!!!!!!! Cutting back needs alot of self-empowerment. Have to stop yourself from membeli barang setiap kali menjejakkan kaki ke Oxford Street. No, actually having Sainsbury's nearby pun is dangerous for a fanatic baker like me!!! Shissshhhh.....luckily my career-to-be managed to calm me down and think waras-ly. Making more money sounds easy...BUT where to start leh???!!!! It's not that i dont want to work... TAPI i dont want to come back at night!!! Whitechapel is way too dodgy and scary and dangerous at night!!!!! Like foo said, "DON'T YOU EVER GO BACK ALONE AT NIGHT!!!" Thanks foo, you're sooo schweeet! Asking the guys to pick me up at the bus stop every night makes me feel sooooo bad!!!! Don't want to bully them slalooo.... :)

*Think Think Think*

Come to think about it again, it's not that i dont have enough money to survive! But i WANT MORE money!!! I want to travel more!!! There are alot of places i've yet to cover :) Then, i want to watch more musical theater! Or maybe a football match. With this limited money supply, "ketat" jugaklah kewangan i selepas tgk benda-benda ni! And lastly, I want to shop more! I wouldn't mind adding more tops or dress for my wardrobe. Or maybe buy new pair of flats to replace the one yang terkoyak sbb i terjatuh while walking in it! hee hee hee ;)

My, my....Rashidah is sooo selfish!! Think about those in poor countries like Douala or anywhere lah!

I guess what i really weally need now is to learn to be grateful with what I have! Coz someone, somewhere is in a worst condition than me. Atleast I have a place to berteduh from hujan, panas, crazee wind, snow etc. Atleast I have clothes to cover my body and keep me warm. Atleast I have food to eat....yummilicious food to be exact! Not just nasi kosong. Atleast I have education; something that is really important for my future!

"Life is not over because you have diabetes. Make the most of what you have, be grateful!"

Dale Evans Rogers