at my lowest point

Heyya :)

I had my very first "real" clinical session earlier this morning. I said it's real because it's the first time i really did something inside somebody's mouth. Normally before this it's just the normal check-up. But today, i finally did my first probbing(fyi : it's to check for any periodontal disease in your gum) !!! Cool ey? ;) Suddenly i realised that wahhhh susah jugak dah masuk clinical ni!!!!! What i do, all my actions will bring BIG impact on others. If i dont take cross-infection control seriously, i might cause harm to my patients. *yikes* And the thought that accident happens...anytime, anywhere, towards anybody....buat i rase sangat takut! And worried tooo :( Am i able to carry this HUGE responsibility? Will i survive in this never-ending journey? 4 more years to go insyallah! Huhhhh, life is not a bed of roses afterall....

.. I wanna go home! 2/3 more days before Syawal comes. I miss the familia. I miss the friends. I miss mama's mee soto. I miss buat kuih and wawa and ateh jadi my quality-control workers. I miss masukkan duit raya. I miss going to pkns the night before raya to get cheap kuih raya. I miss masakan wan don. I miss mama and abah.

I just want to go home.... :'(

AKYUEM berbuka thingy @Holiday Villa.
Zharif buat i gelak lalu i menganga seperti itu...hohohohoh :D