"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal."
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You dont realize how strong you are until you're being tested at your weakest moment; that's my opinion. Those days when i used to cry in my sleep. I dreaded waking up in the morning coz it'll destroy those dreams with her in it. I would just sit by the phone and stared at it, hoping it'll ring and her voice can be heard from across. Insane? Yeah, the depression and sadness that i faced that time was unbearable. Nobody would understand coz they never know how it feels to loss your bestfriend.... They said they do but actually THEY DONT!!!!
Today, is her 6th death anniversary. 6 years have passed but to me, it's as if only yesterday she just kissed me on the cheek, begging me not to leave her alone on her grandma's funeral. I'm sorry dear...if only i see it coming :( I would have spent my time with you. These 6 years without her were hard...especially the earlier part. I fell hard on the ground and never thought i could get back onto my feet. But slowly, i started to crawl and later, i walk. Now im beginning to run, and continue the long-journey of mine. My journey will end soon too...but only GOD knows when. Wallahualam.
If i tell you that im 100% cured, it's just a lie. But if i keep on berkabung, im crazee! Life must goes on, no matter what happens. I will always remember our beautiful+wonderful memories, but i'm not afraid to make some more.... i bet she wouldnt want to see me in a bad shape right? She wanted me to be happy, so that is what i'll be. I'm glad that our paths crossed, eventhough it was just for a short time. Now, i dont think im walking alone anymore. I believe that she's somewhere upthere watching over me ;)
You dont realize how strong you are until you're being tested at your weakest moment; that's my opinion. Those days when i used to cry in my sleep. I dreaded waking up in the morning coz it'll destroy those dreams with her in it. I would just sit by the phone and stared at it, hoping it'll ring and her voice can be heard from across. Insane? Yeah, the depression and sadness that i faced that time was unbearable. Nobody would understand coz they never know how it feels to loss your bestfriend.... They said they do but actually THEY DONT!!!!
Today, is her 6th death anniversary. 6 years have passed but to me, it's as if only yesterday she just kissed me on the cheek, begging me not to leave her alone on her grandma's funeral. I'm sorry dear...if only i see it coming :( I would have spent my time with you. These 6 years without her were hard...especially the earlier part. I fell hard on the ground and never thought i could get back onto my feet. But slowly, i started to crawl and later, i walk. Now im beginning to run, and continue the long-journey of mine. My journey will end soon too...but only GOD knows when. Wallahualam.
If i tell you that im 100% cured, it's just a lie. But if i keep on berkabung, im crazee! Life must goes on, no matter what happens. I will always remember our beautiful+wonderful memories, but i'm not afraid to make some more.... i bet she wouldnt want to see me in a bad shape right? She wanted me to be happy, so that is what i'll be. I'm glad that our paths crossed, eventhough it was just for a short time. Now, i dont think im walking alone anymore. I believe that she's somewhere upthere watching over me ;)
TUN ZARA SUFIA
16TH SEPTEMBER 1986 - 11TH MARCH 2000
~AL-FATIHAH~
16TH SEPTEMBER 1986 - 11TH MARCH 2000
~AL-FATIHAH~
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